Emoticons

Each time I would see anyone of my friends wearing a long face my first attempt to lighten up the mood is by asking, “Bakit ’emoticons’ ka? [Why are you emoting?]”

I really am curious if there is a single, universal reason why people end up lonely, sad, crushed, or depressed – whatever you want to call it. What’s interesting is that I guess sometimes people end up feeling sad for no particular reason at all.

Personally, I am not the type to fall  easily into a sad mood – impatient or irritated I surely can in a snap, but sad? Not really. Well, maybe only when I am tired – that is the one time I am most vulnerable to elements… like now.

I have mentioned over and over how the start of the year of the ox made me strongly feel like I am the ox, well oxen to be grammatically correct at that. Today is yet another one of those days when I spent the whole day working, not a piece of rest, the same thing day after day for the whole week. And it does take its toll on you, you know? Not to mention this is also the time of the month where I suffer from premenstrual syndrome (PMS). I am terrible at PMS, so terrible that my friend Mon thought I could be as good as the one who discovered it.

I hate that I am feeling so vulnerable each time physical stress overtakes my being, that the usual load of beatings I take before fainting is cut in half, making me such a loser in less than five minutes – make that two, two minutes. When I am physically strangulated, my emotions run amok, with the devilish help of raging hormones, I am as good as dead, or heaven not permit, I can have people dead because of my temper.

If you are trying to make sense of this smorgasbord post, you will notice that I find sadness, annoyance, and stress as synonymous words, never having them one at a time but always like a cholesterol-savvy fast food combo.

Sorry for the interruption, but excuse me for cutting this short – I have the sudden strongest urge to scream at the top of my lungs. Keeping my fingers crossed that it will make me feel better.