On two separate occasions, people who know me personally who have been reading my blog has asked me if I was sad. It came as a surprise, their inquiry. I did not notice that I was being melodramatic, was I really? All I knew was that I was severely short-circuit, the epicenter of a stress catastrophe. Now I stop to ask myself if I am sad. I rerun my last few days and found that I never said I was “actually sad”.
So does that mean I am happy? Well, I never said that. For a fact, I remember telling my closest people more than once in the last few months that I was unhappy.
In the past, my only problem was not eating vegetables; but as time goes by, I feel the psychological junk food I consume every waking day is very high, I now have two reasons for being unhealthy. God help me. I think I am too young to die.
Now I realize what is the difference between being a drama queen and a true attack of depression: it is a matter of consciousness.
I analyze and assess myself on an objective basis, splitting myself in two: a patient and the nurse. If I am to look at the subjective verbalization of the people around me telling me that I am “sad”, objective signs that must be present to validate the claim should be one or a few of the following: loss or a sudden increase in appetite, lack of interest in activities that are usually routine or enjoyed, spacing out unconsciously, a drop in interpersonal relations, anxiety attacks, stress bouts and confusion.
Or in my case, all of the above.
yay.. ako din depress.. ng bonggang bongga.. kaya puro kain din inatupag ko o kaya matulog o maginternet.. kaya mo yan gurl!!
nako mahirap mag gain weight pag ganiyan LOL
oh, the usual episodes of an overworked ‘cat’ maybe. if not, hormonal changes? ha ha ha
hormonal changes? hmmm… nah. LOL
I somehow see myself in you when I was younger, especially on the things that I eat. I think I was like that because I thought I’m invincible (at least you’re aware that you’re too young to die, heehee; I always thought I’d live forever. Lol.) until I reached 30.
asperger ka din?
As I read this, I see a cat that is “sad” and not enjoying the people at work around her? Haha, I may be wrong, but cats do feel and look sad even if they weren’t.
“False alarm, you’re poopin'”
cats look evil always LOL false alarm, just poopin LOL
so depressed ka nga? he! he! i’ve never seen you as sad actually. i see you more as a “deep” person.
anyway, can a nurse diagnose himself/herself? just wondering…
🙂
too deep? LOL i think i can diagnose myself. i have diagnosed myself with asperger’s right?
i never sensed you’re sad
more like stressed out or distraught
hehe
take it easy
relax
have a break
have a kitkat
nyahaha
(korny!)
my whiskers are all wrinkly. LOL
Are you stressed ? Can I buy you lunch ? 🙂 Looks like all you need is a vacation 😉
badly need. i don’t think it’s coming very soon though. ugh.
easy lang. dont take too seriously. dagdag wrinkles yan. 🙂
it makes my tail go bushy. LOL
i boblow dry ko na lang lagi yung buntot mo para di magmukhang kakahuyan. 🙂 hehehe.
shoots, i seem to have all of the above symptoms…lol. really, life isn’t complete without the ups and downs.
i wonder when i’m going to see the next up LOL