Not Really A Leap Of Faith, Just Suicide

girl with lamp in sea

End of month post, wow. Can you believe it, March already! At the close of 2012, I figured this year will be explosive but I didn’t realize it’ll be this much. Possibilities… I’m just so excited. πŸ™‚

Don’t get me wrong, the past couple of months has been all time high in the history of stress and making huge decisions like shit, but as long as I’m moving forward then I have no complaints. I guess when you know you deserve better things in life, you just can’t wait for the rest of your life to begin. It’s a phenomenal experience – it may not make you look like Megan Fox but at least you’ll feel more alive!

Actually, this brings me to the main point of this… reflection. Let’s call it reflection just this once and not cat typing crap, okay? πŸ˜† Many times, we get so caught up in such an overwhelmed state of mind that we just forget to take action even if where we are at present already corrodes our souls. That can’t be right, can it?

Often, the answer to that question is something we already know; hell, we even know what we want to do to make things better but we aren’t taking action. I know so because I’ve probably spent the last five or six months in the same situation and the staying still only added to all my distress, which eventually went from staying still to moving backwards. Go figure.

girl in scary forest

What makes the difference is making the jump. Most people call it a leap of faith but to me it’s just suicide. πŸ˜† But no matter how scary it is, you have to do it. Have is the magic word.

You don’t have much of a choice because if you have enough self respect you will do it even if you feel like not doing it just to be fair to yourself. If something doesn’t feel right anymore, chances are, things will not get any better, even if you prolong it for all eternity; might be hard to swallow but that’s life.

Bottom line:Β go out there, make as much mess as you can, call the suicide decision, figure out what you’re doing later and you’ll benefit from that. What’s the worse that can happen? You either end up being ridiculously happy or you fail.

But who cares if you fail? You just figured out one more thing that doesn’t work and move on to your next idea that you think will work. The person who said life is a bouquet of roses lied, love.

Life is easy, right or wrong? Wrong! It will give you a chocolate bar and once you take it, it will double bitch slap you until you fall to the ground then take back your chocolate bar with an evil laugh to boot…

But that’s only up until you learn to kick its ass. And you can.

Photos taken from here.

53 thoughts on “Not Really A Leap Of Faith, Just Suicide

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  3. Where do we get that push or shove in the direction of your dreams called motivation? That is so elusive to me.
    Yes, I agree that taking that risk is a way of knowing if the idea will work or not.

    • we get that push ceemee, we need only realize that hey, this is the push! mine came in a very unexpected way but i’m grateful it did. πŸ™‚ let’s take risks and see if we can grow wings!

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  5. So it’s a suicide leap??? I’ve always hated the phrase leap of faith because well, it’s so positive when you ever get from it is less than what you gave. Ahhh risks, I will never understand why you even exist.

    “I guess when you know you deserve better things in life, you just can’t wait for the rest of your life to begin.” This is really beautiful. So beautiful everyone should be made aware of this.

    Also, I agree with Derek. I go to my shrink’s office twice a week and see self help pamphlets all the time but none of them beats this. Stay golden, PM.

    • don’t even call it a leap, elaine. just think of it as plain suicide because that’s exactly what it is. sometimes you don’t even have to jump to do it, but that’s detail. the point is if you know what you want, just go get it.

      i think this touches on the importance of being present too. don’t think too much of the outcome of what you’ll do because you can’t control that. what you can control though is what you do right now.

      fuck the future – it can worry about itself. focus on the now and take action, build momentum and just get things done. bow.

      i want a shrink too!

      • Literal suicide is bad for someone with clinical depression. Hahahaha! But I get what you mean. It’s one of the many things I need to work on, being present. I worry and care too much. Emphasis on worry. Today, everything gives me anxiety I don’t even know why. I’ll have to leave it to my shrink.

        • just call it a sky dive then, that can work. πŸ˜‰ i have days like that too! but it’s okay i guess. feel the anxiety if that’s your state of mind. maybe if you embrace it instead of fight it, you’ll figure it out?

          • Oh lawrd you sound like my shrink! Hahahaha! Doing my best not to fight it. I just despise chaos and when you do look into my brain, it’s full-on chaos in there. I’m thinking of signing up for fat yoga or something, maybe that could work too. Haha I don’t know, I’m bonkers.

            • maybe that’s one of the issues, you dislike chaos? everything is chaos in life, you know that. but even if it is, it’s okay. we just try to live with it, don’t we? whoever said everything has to be in order?

                • and you will be. don’t rush yourself! for sure there will be days when you feel shitty as hell but that’s okay as long as you don’t allow those days to stop you from moving forward. all will be well. it’s hard to believe it particularly when you don’t feel fine at all but it’s true. things have a way of turning out for the best.

    • get your condescending ass back to melbourne, you πŸ˜† thank you, derek. that’s the sweetest thing. at this point in my life i just have to be positive. it’s the only thing i can do to keep it together! did my post uplift you somehow?

          • Down and out? I certainly hope not PM! If I am, then, well, that’s not good. Hard to explain…simply put, at the moment there is a LOT going on in my life, and I am only now realising that some things (that I not did initially perceive to be very important) need to be prioritised. What about you PM? How are you at the moment?

            • well i guess that’s how life always is, isn’t it? either nothing happens at all or everything happens at once. it’s insane but that’s just how it goes. priorities change and continue to evolve, derek, that’s normal so don’t be too hard on yourself, won’t you? how am i doing? first thank you for asking. πŸ™‚ well i am like what you’ve been reading here the past days! hmm… just a thought. elaine and i iMessage, derek. do you want to join the band?

              • What’s i-Message? Seriously, I am not joking PM, I have no idea what i-Message is. I have a tendency to live under rocks whilst everything else is going down. If you are willing to give me a brief low-down I’ll be grateful. Then, I can provide an answer. πŸ˜€

                  • Oh, i-Phone! Yes… That’s Apple, right? Is this only compatible with Apple products, or is this unanimous with all devices?
                    Sounds a little complicated to me…technology and I have not being friends since, well, forever. I’m not a technophobe, but something usually goes terribly wrong – eventually.

                    • yes, across apple stuff. c’mon don’t stall, give it up already! i’m not techie too but i like iMessaging so worth it. πŸ™‚

                  • I’m not stalling PM! At least, I don’t think so. Problem – I don’t have a single Apple product in my entire house. My laptop’s a Lenovo and my phone’s a Samsung. If this only works with Apple devices, then I may not be able to participate.
                    Also, just in case you think I’m being a real mean bloke, I am not deliberately attempting to avoid i-Messaging with you. I just don’t know if I am able to do so…

                    • it’s cool πŸ™‚ we can’t imessage if that’s the case. but if you have viber or whatsapp, it’s doable for these two are across smartphones.

                  • Yeah…PM,. your opinion of me is going to plummet upon reading this but…I don’t have a smartphone. I’m old school. My mobile doesn’t have any of those fancy pancy features that are all the rage today. Sorry! If you have any other suggestions I am all ears. Or eyes as the case is here.

                    • i know someone like you and it has made his life simpler πŸ™‚ it’s cool. elaine and i will just have all the fun in the world and leave you out πŸ˜†

                  • Okay PM! I wish you and Elaine the best in your i-Phone adventures. Oh, just so you know, I don’t think you’re having half the fun you think you are, after all, it’s never a party without me! πŸ˜€ I don’t call myself Naughty Nefarious for nothing!

                  • Sorry PM, you are right – that comment was entirely uncalled for. Come to think of it, maybe I was jealous? πŸ˜€ Also, it’s not that I didn’t provide my i-Message – I can’t! I don’t have one! Take care!

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